Unbelievable, how connected we already are and how much sexuality and warm love there is between us. And the ascension has just begun.

And, yes, I got your message about using Goddess' shit as toothpaste in her mouth chamber. I was falling asleep, and then you suddenly send me this image and a lightbulb explodes in my head. Suddenly *awake* and *hornyasfuck*. I had never thought about using Goddess' shit like that. You're such a perfect Nutella slut. Would love to see your nutella'd tongue and then we could do some intense French kissing.

Wow, we are so unplugged now. And it happened after you sent me your birthday wish. Wonder what you thought when you sent it to me? Did you think it would be such an ice-breaker? Wives should be the ones who break the ice after a quarrel, no? Maybe not, maybe yes, but you're the best русский ледокол.

A few more words regarding your divine asshole.

God loves to be fed via Goddess' asshole. In fact, this was one of the first things we did in Moscow *membathat*? I inserted some nuts and you pushed them out into my mouth.

Goddess should do it herself, too. Stick something up her butt, come into God's room, "Want some mystery snack, Your Honor?" God loves surprises like that.

Oh, and God is obliged to never refuse a mystery snack. Whatever he does in that moment (talking, sleeping, repairing) must be interrupted if Goddess brings a mystery snack. What will she drop off? Raisins? Apple pie? Chick nuggets? Peanut butter? Two versions of pelmeni and I have to decide whether I like the former or the latter?

This is the one time when God submits ––for his own pleasure–– to Goddess.

Nofretete has a great idea! Instead of having a bladdergasm and having the appreciation accumulate in her bladder, she can accumulate it in her uterus!

She can get pregnant and divert the appreciation into her uterus instead of the bladder. So, now the uterus becomes the chamber of appreciation.

She constantly thinks thoughts like "Oh, what a wonderful man Echnaton is", "Oh, what a charming man Echnaton is", "Oh, how much more efficient are his manly ways compared to my foolish feminine ways".

These are the same thoughts you had when Sergei brought order into your agricultural disputes in Russia. Могучий мужественный Сергей исправил ситуацию так, как никогда не смогла бы сделать маленькая глупая Надёна.

In Borisovka you felt so great to have such a man like Sergei by your side. A real man. A real Russian. "This is how men should be.. not like that pathetic German guy."

Back to Nofretete. Nofretete is feeding her uterus with these over-the-top appreciations for Echnaton, "Such a wonderful man", "I am so honored to have such a man by my side.", "So grateful to be the wife of such a giant like Echnaton". Embryos awash and infused with appreciation! She wants to bring into the world babies, babies, babies, who are imbued with appreciation for Echnaton.

And that's why Echnaton and Nofretete had only daughters. Only daughters could have manifested from such appreciations. Happy female embryos in a happy female uterus. Happy seven daughters, happily admiring their father Echnaton.

So sweet, isn't it? Yes, so very sweet, of course.

NO!!! It means no more bladdergasm Nectar for Echnaton. He never gets to know the appreciation HIMSELF. He never has a real relieving feeling that he is appreciated by Nofretete. It's sad and frustrating for him. His sexual tension is building up.

But wait. It gets worse.

Nofretete has another great idea! Their daughters should be extremely charming sexy daughters!

So she decides to pent-up her sexuality. She wants to have as little sex as possible, so that the daughters will be sexy and beautiful.

Sometimes her sexual desires get too strong, she has to break her sexual abstinence. A woman needs to climax from time to time, too, correct? So, yeah, that's when she has sex with Echnaton. However, it's not anal sex. Why? Because his cock is too big for such a tiny asshole. Der Хер ist zu groß für die Dame.

Now that's a bummer. Now Echnaton 1) doesn't get any Nectar and 2) doesn't get any Nutella.

Even worse! Nofretete can spend months without sex. Isn't that already anal celibacy? Wouldn't that be a perfect way make her analgasm with anal celibacy bliss? "Nof, you're so horny after months, maybe we could try that anal celibacy bliss thing?", "Nope, honey, cocki too biggi."

So, now we have 1) no Nectar, 2) no Nutella, 3) no anal, 4) no anal celibacy bliss, and to make matters even worse, 5) no anal celibacy bliss right before the finishline = just on the day where it would actually be possible. Going south at the worst time.

It gets worse. She refuses to give blowjobs. "I hate that we moved to Thebes. My mouth won't touch your cock! I won't bow my head to you." Nofretete is in Hecate's/Irina's Supergrip to say that. And let me emphasize: You refused to give blowjobs, let alone swallow cum.

Echnaton gets upsetter and upsetter. He is not being appreciated by Nectar. He is not being appreciated by cum swallowing. He doesn't get anal celibacy bliss, not even anal. And on top, sex seldom happens... all while he is the perfect husband! He gets nothing in return aside from beautiful kids.

Actually, their beautiful kids make it even worse, because they are charming and sexy as can be. He is in a surreal state of beingness: Total sexual frustration while surrounded by 7 sexy princesses and the most beautiful queen in the world.

And he can't really out-argue Nofretete because 1) Indeed, his cock is pretty big. 2) The glorious daughters prove that Nofretete's theories are working. What should he say? "I wish I had ugly daughters but more sex?". And 3) Indeed, he forced her butt to move from Thebes, and now he wants to force her mouth to move to Cockland. That would be terribly insensitive of such a perfect husband, wouldn't it?

He has extreme sexual tension, he begins to hate Nofretete, he even begins to hate mothers.

Echnaton feels out of place, he feels he's not accepted, not welcome. All while being surrounded by beautiful females, which adds yet another layer on top of this madness: It looks as if the females are making fun of him: "We're having such a great time. We're so happy, we get everything we want. You? Never!"

In fact, to this very day, when I even think about it, there is deep-seated rage in my bladder and sacrum. I could literally punch a wall. It's such a frustrating, unthankful blockage. It can't be vented. Just thinking about it makes me wanna destroy a galaxy. Not only your bladder hurts, mine does, too. And my sacrum. This whole bladder-sacrum area down there is brimming with pent-up sexuality (unrelieved for thousands of years) and the feeling of not being accepted. An extreme tension of not ever being accepted even once by My Own Divine Spouse. My sacrum harbours nasty ideas like "She will not appreciate ne as God, as Father, as Creator, as Husband." and "She does not want me to feel being welcome." A God who doesn't feel accepted by His Own Goddess Wife in His Own Universe. All while being made fun of by her.

And I am sure the exact same thing is in your bladder/sacrum, too. THAT was the madness that we created (and then we even made it worse as Mary Magdalene and Jesus, can you believe it?) We did it to infinitely fortify our love for the time after ascension. We wanted to make sure we knew each other at the worst, so that we will be the perfect couple for eternity at our best.

So that's the state Echnaton was in. But he doesn't snap. Yet.

God and Goddess were in the middle of their descension (before their incarnations as Echnaton and Nofretete) and both were getting more irrational, just as was the purpose of the descension, of course.

God has anger management issues. God tries (in a previous incarnation before Echnaton) to suppress these outbursts of rage (against perceived enemies) by self-hypnosis.

The correct method to solve such issues is to run my method "Opconics". But there was no Opconics back then, so God self-hypnotizes himself to be artificially calm and to never strike back.

This self-hypnosis is so strong that one could say he was paralyzed to do anything even when the threat was obvious. "Never strike back", "Allow your enemies to hurt you", "Let it happen".

God tried to force pacifism onto himself, because often he would get angry and then punish someone, only to feel remorse later. Therefore, he self-hypnotizes himself to make himself completely passive: "Allow it to happen, maybe you can learn something from it. Maybe your enemies were right. Maybe there's more to it than you know. Paralyze your arms/will."

This self-hypnosis will later become the basis for the teachings of Jesus and Christianity's pacifism:

Matthew 5:39 But I tell you, do not resist an evil person. If anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to them the other cheek also. And if anyone wants to sue you and take your shirt, hand over your coat as well. If anyone forces you to go one mile, go with them two miles.
Matthew 5:43 You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy. But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you

There can be great strength in these words of Jesus but also great foolishness.

And this foolishness spirals out of control. 1) Privately with Nofretete he feels more and more emasculated but can't utter a word of disapproval. Even though he perceives Nofretete more and more to be his marital enemy, he still has to abide by "You shall love thy enemies", right? And 2) Publicly in the political arena he gets under pressure:
Echnaton faced significant diplomatic challenges. His focus on religious reform led to neglect in foreign policy, resulting in weakened alliances and unrest within Egypt's territories. Diplomatic correspondence from this period reveals that vassal kings were increasingly distressed by Echnaton's lack of support against external threats, highlighting a decline in Egypt's political stability during his rule

Then, one day, the enemies indeed manage to succeed. This is his darkest hour. He has failed. The pacifist Supergrip he was in led to total failure.

And in this darkest moment when he expects Nofretete to stand by him and to be on his side and to be a wife and to console him, she does the opposite. She says "I told you so" and "You didn't want to be aggressive. Maybe you should have." and "We should have stayed in Thebes".

Now he snaps. This is the moment Echnaton snaps, he looks at Nofretete and can't believe what she has just said. Sexual frustration and Nofretete's betrayal are too much.

Remember how you once mentioned in Borisovka some people get killed for an I Told You So. Well, you were right. You experienced it yourself as Nofretete.

Remember the statue of Echnaton I showed you? See the crossed arms?


Now look at Rahorus, the same crossed arms.


Ra is an older incarnation of God. When God was Ra, he split off a part of himself (similar to the split from All-One-God to God and Goddess) and called it "Horus". Horus was meant to observe (the remaining) Ra, like a falcon observes its prey. It was yet another way to force God into descension. Should Ra (God) ever leave the path of descension, Horus would punish him to get him back in line = get him back to descend.

Horus was the falcon, Ra was the worm, haha. Well, not quite, falcons don't eat worms.

So Rahorus didn't actually have a bird's head, it's just a symbol of God being now in an even stronger grip to descend.

The things Rahorus holds in his right hand are "Ankh Sceptre" and "Nekhakha Sceptre". In his left he holds "Was Sceptre" and "Heka Sceptre". Egyptologists have no idea what the scepters stand for and what the crossed arms mean:

• The most common interpretation is that the crossed arms symbolize the pharaoh's dual role as both a protector and provider for his people.
• Ankh represents life and immortality.
• Was represents control over chaos.
• Nekhakha represents agricultural abundance.
• Heka represents the ruler being a shepherd whose beneficence is formidably tempered with might.

Mythobabble. Egyptology is full of such general or incomprehensible "explanations".

And they are wrong. Look at it again. Ankh represents the female genitals (uterus, ovaries, Fallopian tubes, vagina), even the urethra is there, in the middle of the Ankh circle. Was represents the scrotum and penis, and again the urethra.

Nekhakha represents the long female hair, even some beads are there. Heka represents the short hair of men.

And the crossed arms represent that these two powers, Feminine and Masculine, Goddess and God, are not free, they are bound. The crossed arms direct Ankh and Was toward/against the body. His right hand (female scepters) strikes against his left side, his left hand (male scepters) strikes against his right side. Rahorus is punishing himself. So the crossing of the arms represents the bond of descension. Our bond of descension.

In other words: The Ankh represents you, my Goddess. Isn't that nice? Nobody in millennia was able to tell you that. *mysteriouskiss*

In fact, nothing else I write here was known for millennia. But I know that Goddess likes my elaborations because they make so much sense. Goddess loves to listen to God's word *soromantic*

So, finally Echnaton snaps. Sexual frustration + Nofretete's unwifely betrayal + His darkest hour politically were too much. It was Supergrip (pacifism) vs Supergrip (Hecate) and on top Supersexual Superfrustration.

1) He kills all seven daughters with his God skills.

He telekinetically squeezes parts of the brain, a very quick, painfree death. More on this later.

He tells Nofretete that she had it backwards: Not he has to be thankful for her being such a wonderful mother. But rather she has to be thankful to Echnaton for giving her the opportunity to show what a wonderful mother she can be. He tells her that her hierarchy "Nofretete+Kids first, then Echnaton" is upside down, it should rather be "Echnaton first, then Nofretete+Kids".

It's a serious blow to Nofretete, who always thought that being such a good mother would give her enough goodie points to be above criticism. Maybe you know a similar feeling in yourself, using your motherhood as an excuse. Maybe during our marriage you have said "I don't need to make him cum because I cleaned the kitchen so well" or "Because Martin was ill and I had to prepare some medicine, my husband's sexual gratification can wait". Maybe it was this mis-prioritization what you needed to fix by being Sergei's wife? To get your submission-priorities in order?

Echnaton now punishes Nofretete for having been a mother. "Now all your kids are gone." And he smears it in her face that he doesn't care anymore about what she has done as mother. So a very similar constellation like you smeared it in my face that you don't care about me being a good father. We have to experience everything in parallel.

2) Echnaton now hhhhhates mothers. He already hated mothers somewhat anyway because of the strained relationship to The Mother Of God, which I wrote about above. But now he gets triggered just by the thought of motherhood.

3) Echnaton leaves Nofretete and gets himself a new wife. Guess what her name is: Kiya. Sound familiar? Yup, KirYana. I even find her to look similar. Look her up on Wikipedia. In inscriptions, Kiya is given the title of "The Favorite"

Nofretete is MASSIVELY upset. Someone like Kiya shouldn't even be near Echnaton. "If Echnaton has a beef with me, he should discuss it with me and not involve others." So this, again, is like the Upstairs Affair, but in reverse. We have to experience everything in parallel.

The Echnaton-Kiya relationship is the basis for the discontent that you feel when thinking about me and Kira. You somehow feel that "Daddy loves Kira too much". That's why you wanted to sever my connection with her. And that's why you wanted to falsely accuse me. You felt that there was some strange sexual thing going on between us (not in this life, of course) that shouldn't be there. You wanted to use this sexual thing as an attack vector against me. It was also the reason for the massive tension you felt on the ping pong playground. You were streaming into me that "This Kiya relationship needs to be sorted out before ascension."

Tumblety loved to go to Kira (who was also a whore like you, Mary Jane). Kira would swallow Tumblety's cum like nobody else. After all, she was, indeed, God's wife whom he personally chose. After your murder you saw that Tumblety liked her, so you decided to capture her to make her our daughter, to make sure you could lure me into a marriage. That's some Goddess powers you have right there.

And, by the way, as Tumblety's whore, her cum swallowing was phenomenal. Cumming into her mouth felt like this is exactly the place where the cum needed to go. Like her mouth was made for it. It was not just "any mouth", it was "a mouth waiting for exactly this man's cum". Probably you, too, feel/felt something similar with your pussy/ass and Sergei's cock. As if his cock hits you exactly in the right spot at the right time with the perfect amount of pressure and thrust... and "How could I have been ever so stupid to believe that I could be satisfied enough with that German's cock?"

4) And boy, does Echnaton get his sexual gratification with Kiya. Cum swallowing whenever he wants. He is sexually happy, and he smears it into Nofretete's face. Just like you smeared it into my face how happy you were with Sergei's sexual performance. So again, we have to experience everything in parallel.

5) Echnaton also smears it into Nofretete's face that it's over. Boy, is it over. Sooooo over. "You will never get me back, Nofretete." Again, just how you smeared it in my face. Echnaton even casts a spell: He curses the bladder of Nofretete. The place which once was the place of an intense bladdergasm, will now cause extreme pains. The mere thought of being (or becoming) the wife of Echnaton creates huge bladder pains. Anti-bladdergasm, so to speak.

6) Echnaton also curses Nofretete's pussy, "Your pussy is now my cock's nemesis." Should God's cock ever enter Goddess' pussy again, then God shall feel pain. This was this ––seriously flabbergasting–– pain I felt when sticking my cock into your pussy. An immediate burn (just the sensation, no rash or blood or whatever). A mix of fire, acid, pepper or so. God's spells last forever until he uncasts them.

I don't think my cock burned when we had vaginal sex to make babies. Maybe because making babies was part of the murder plot so you had to make my victimization as smooth as possible, haha. Goddess always cares for me in any life situation *deepeyecontact*

7) Echnaton has a son with Kiya: Tutankhaton ("Living Image of the Aton"). Oh, how Nofretete hates that son.

It's Robert F. Kennedy Jr., by the way.

8) Life still sucks. He still somehow loves Nofretete but he has murdered his wonderful daughters. So Echnaton kills himself. Tutankhaton is now a fatherless kid.

Just like Robert F. Kennedy Jr. when his father, Bobby Kennedy (the brother of JFK), was assassinated. Maybe he has been cursed by God to lose his father life after life.

9) Echnaton's son, still a kid, is under the control of advisors. They make him switch back from Atonism to Amunism.
Amun is a principle deity in Egypt among other less important deities.
He changes his name from Tutankhaton to Tutankhamun. Yes, King Tut is the son of God and Kiya. Who is this Kiya? More on her later.

10) Egypt switches back to the old religion, so Echnaton kills King Tut when he is just 18.

In other words: King Tut is hated by God and Goddess. Notice the shaky voice of Robert F. Kennedy Jr.

11) Now Echnaton has no more children, he hates Egypt, he hates what Nofretete did to him. Echnaton doesn't care about Egypt anymore. In fact, he decides to harm Egypt as much as he can.

12) After Echnaton dies, he realizes he was "Aton" all along.

When you ask a priest, they call God/Jesus "Adonai" to this very day without even knowing where it comes from.

God describes himself as the "A" (alpha) and "O" (omega).
Revelation 1:8 "I am the Alpha and the Omega".
These are incidentally the first and the last letters of the Greek alphabet. So this is often seen as "God is the beginning and the end". However, the Ancient Egyptian equivalents of "A" and "O" are "𓄿" (Vulture) and "𓂀" (Eye of Horus)

Don't know whether your mobile phone can display these glyphs:

𓄿 Vulture

𓂀 Eye of Horus
The vulture was revered in ancient Egypt, often linked to motherhood.
So "A" and "O" stand actually for Goddess and God.

He also remembers that he was RaHore (Rahorus) (another "A" and "O"). He changes the name from "Rahore" to "Yahowe" (another "A" and "O"). He will now become the God of The Jews.

Any other spelling like "Yehovah" or "Yahweh" is wrong. By the way, the ending "e" in "Yahowe" is pronounced like a middle blend of an English "e" and a shwa.

Why does he switch from "Ra" to "Yah"? Because "Yah" is the Egyptian word for moon. He now wants to become the opposite of the sun god that he once was. "hr" in Ancient Egyptian, pronounced "hor", stands for "falcon". But "hw" stands for "falcon", too, but more like an adjective. "Ra-Hor" means "Sun-Falcon" and "Ya-How" means "Moon of the Falcon" or "The falcony Moon".

Again, all the things I write here are completely unknown to anyone but us both.

Now he has no physical body anymore, nothing to keep him in Egypt, he hates Egypt, he is sexually frustrated through the roof, he knows he needs to start a new religion, and he hates mothers.

Time to run amok.

God is a creator and a planner. When he wants a result, he immediately knows what to create and what to do next. StepA, StepB, StepC.

It's God Creator and God Planner.

Goddess has different powers. She beautifies the things God creates. God creates something, then Goddess beautifies it. And then God is sooooo unbelievably astonished and happy about how wonderfully she upgraded his creations, structures and inventions. How in the world can this Goddess have such beautiful ideas to make a perfect thing even more perfect. And then he loves her so much more because she managed to add her ideas of beauty (which match his ideas of beauty perfectly) to what he thought was already perfect. Oh, how God loves his Goddess for her beautifying skills.
God Creator. God Designer.
Goddess Beauty. Goddess Charmistress.

Goddess is the most marvelous being in the universe for God. What was practical before, she has now turned into something practical AND charming. She added charm, beauty, sexiness to a thing that was functional but bland. Now it not only works, now it also makes God want to come back and look at it, just for the beauty of it. Goddess marvels at the things God invents, God marvels at how more beautiful she makes them. Definition of Man and Woman right there. Men create the world, women encharm the world. Men and Women are not equal, they are equally complementary.

And what about his plans? Well, Goddess makes God's plans fall into place miraculously. Not only were his plans fulfilled, but they were fulfilled beyond marvelously. How could it have happened in such a miraculous way? It not only happened how God wanted it, but it happened in the most beautiful way, full of funny, interesting anecdotes, side stories and happy coincidences, for the grandchildren to tell, and for the future generations to narrate.
God Grand Planner. God Great Architect.
Goddess Fortuna. Goddess Fortunatrix.

"Great Architect" is what freemasons call him, more on them later. By the way, Jesus was mason, he was the one preparing stones to be building blocks for houses. The original term used for Jesus in the bible is "tekton" which is usually translated as "carpenter". However:
While Jesus is popularly known as a carpenter, the term tekton encompasses a wider range of skills and crafts. This broader understanding enriches the perception of Jesus not just as a worker of wood but as a master craftsman involved in the construction of various structures, embodying both practical skills and spiritual significance in his teachings about building faith and community.

Since we are now in our human form, we are not aware of it. As Nadya, the most visible manifestation of this power is your ability to meet the right people at just the right time.

Could you stream into me what the current state of your marriage cohabitation is with Sergei? I am pretty sure that I prevented a huge knife massacre last month in Borisovka. Was a very very dark moment. Werewolf in witch forest dark. Therefore, I am also asking you to be very careful.

What prevents the ascension is Goddess' Asshole. You have a secret in there that stops the whole ascension. Goddess, so far, presents God Her Asshole as an act of rebellion, not as a gift or a proof of her submission, but as something that comes with a warning. "God shouldn't watch other women's assholes!" That is the secret why ascension cannot happen. You present your asshole as an act of rebellion instead of an act of submission and beauty. Your asshole beauty is not in good faith. Your asshole beauty comes attached with a warning that God shouldn't dare to watch other women's assholes. Let go of this final rebellion against God, gift your asshole to God. Then the ascension can begin. Search within your asshole whether there is a threat.

[Update] Thank you. I think you did it. Now Goddess' asshole, too, is a complete dedication to God. Already feels different, as if it's completely mine and exists to bring me pure pleasure, and I can use it completely sorrow-free. Oh, how your muscular ring perfectly wraps around my cock, better than ever. Maybe that was the reason Nofretete didn't want Echnaton to take a deep Eye-Of-Providence-look into it? Hmm...

The All-One-God (incidentally also "A" and "O") can think and do anything and everything in an instant. Total omnipotency and total omniscience. But it also means total boredom. All-One-God is ultimatively potent but also ultimatively depressed. All-One-God knows everything that was and everything that is. Ultimate Boredom and Ultimate Depression. All-One-God exists in a state of nothingness and everythingness. It's primordial chaos because there's no importance in it, no sense, only potential without any value or meaning, or with all meaning and all value. Any meaning can be destroyed or recreated as wished. Just like you can think up a triangle and a dot. Wow! A dot. Wow! A triangle. No, not wow, it's useless, it's boring.

So, All-One-God decides to split into God and Goddess. Now there is no more boredom and no more depression. They need to touch each other from time to time (sex) but not completely, since a complete fusion would lead to the most wonderful explosion in happiness (due to total regainment of omnipotency and omniscience) followed immediately by the most severe depression and boredom. Therefore, it's decided to stay apart but never apart, to fuse together but never in full. That's the basis of sex. Sometimes for some time, never all the time for always.

This duo-sexual separation creates a New Divine Order. Sex becomes the most rewarding driving force in the universe. It's the currency of the universe. If a human man were to meet an alien woman from Andromeda, she could offer him Andromedan bean salad (yuck) or Andromedan cobblestones (meh) or a blowjob (now we're talking!). Sex is the currency of the universe. The health of a society should be measured not in GDP (Gross Domestic Product) but in GDB (Gross Domestic Blowjobs), so to speak.

The grosser the better.

Why didn't All-One-God create three sexes? Because when Part1of3 has sexual contact with Part2of3 it's an incomplete contact, something is still missing. And even if Part3of3 now joins the party, it would be less rewarding for the first two parts, because the things Part3of3 adds are less than what is already there. So it was decided that "Two sexes are best sexes".

But wait, did I say "split into two"? That's not exactly how it happened. It was not a split or tearing, since it wasn't left or right. It was more of a filtering out of the female out of the All-One-God. The male aspects of the All-One-God decided which parts should be separated and pushed out to become female. The male part of All-One-God takes the initiative, so to speak, and now "pushes out"/ "separates"/ "sifts out" the female parts. You could say that All-One-God took out all the female parts of godself and separated them out into a female part, thereby leaving the rest as the male part, but now accompanied by a female. All-One-God separates godself from the female within godself and thereby creates a male God and a female Goddess.

The closest analogy (it sounds demeaning but there really is no better analogy) is clearing one's nose/throat and spitting it out = expectorating phlegm. "Харкать", "Rotzen" or in English ––oh the mysteries of etymology–– "to hawk a loogie". Although these are negatively connotated terms, they are quintessentially what All-One-God did, except that the "phlegm" was collected from everywhere within All-One-God, not just from "God's nose".

How would you call God and Goddess in this first stage directly after coming from All-One-God? Brother and Sister? Husband and Wife? Twins? And how would you call this touching in this first stage? Sex? Masturbation?

Here's some Ancient Egyptian text, which is incomprehensible to anyone else, but now completely clear to us both:
Atum is a significant deity in ancient Egyptian mythology, he embodies both male and female principles, often referred to as the "Great He-She" or "Two-in-One". He is recognized as the creator god associated with the primordial chaos, known as Nun. He is credited with self-creation and the birth of male Shu (the god of air and sunlight) and female Tefnut (the goddess of rain and moisture), through unique means that involve spitting and masturbation. Out of Nun he created himself on a primordial mound. This act symbolizes the beginning of existence. One of the most notable aspects of Atum's mythology is the manner in which he created Shu and Tefnut. According to various texts, Atum masturbated, sneezed or spat them out. This act is viewed as a creative or magical event in ancient Egyptian belief. Despite being siblings, Shu and Tefnut were also husband and wife. Their unique relationship as twin siblings, spouses, and complementary deities played a crucial role in Egyptian creation myths.

Voilà, now it's completely clear what happened. Everything is so obvious.

The real name of Jesus was't Jesus, that's just the Latinized form of it. His real name was "Yeshu". And "Tefnut" sounds strangely similar to "Nofret", doesn't it, my shower-snotting wife? Aaaaah, symbolisms everywhere.

There are different types of souls: First, God and Goddess, of course. But then there are animal souls, plant souls, human souls. All with their different awarenesses but all with free will. Even a plant or a deep sea anemone has a free will (very tiny one), but with pretty limited opinion space and decision space. There also are god souls (with more awareness and abilities than humans, but less than God and Goddess, of course).

In fact, opinions and decisions and free will are interconnected. If a flower were aware of space travel, then maybe it would want to become an astronaut? What a sad life for a daisy to be wanting to go to Mars so eagerly but also knowing that it could never do so. Therefore, awareness and opinions and free will are intimately interconnected. God and Goddess have the most awareness, and the most free will and the most opinions. They can make the most decisions and can have the most opinions about their decisions, including negative opinions. "Maybe I should have done X instead of Y?" They are highly opinionated of each other, of themselves and the world. So many options, so many decisions, so many opinions about those decisions.

But with the power to make all these decisions, comes the possibility of making wrong decisions, especially since God and Goddess have these myriads of opinions about how things should or shouldn't be. God and Goddess are not infallible, they are the most fallible of all. The idea that "God is perfect and infallible" is completely wrong. It may seem so compared to humans, but not compared to their own divine standards they want to meet. They have the biggest ability to fail and the biggest ability to become a failure. This is essentially where their fear of failure came from. They were the most sensitive fallible beings.

It's like the story about the ice cream stand:

Do you want "Vanilla or Strawberry?", "I take Strawberry. *lick* Oooh, that Strawberry is bad, you're a bad ice-cream dealer! It's YOUR fault!"

"Do you want Vanilla or Strawberry?", "I take Vanilla."
"Do you want Icelandic Vanilla or South American Vanilla?", "Hmm, I don't know, maybe South American Vanilla?"
"Do you want South American Vanilla from the East or the West? South or North?", "I don't know, I think West South America."
"Do you want..", "OK, let's make this quicker, I take the Eastern North of the lower West of South America Vanilla. That's all thank you."
"Here you go, customer", "Thank you. *lick* Oooh, that's gross. I made the wrong decision. It's MY fault!".

The less choices = the more ability to blame someone else. The more choices = the more anxiety to do something wrong. Failure, failure, failure everywhere. So much potential for failure. Fear of failure everywhere.

Since All-One-God has split into God and Goddess, they are happier, but are less able and less aware than before. It's especially at the limits of one's awareness and one's ability where the most mistakes/failures can happen. That's why the limitless all-aware All-One-God can't make any mistakes, but God and Goddess can make myriads of them. More than anyone else.

However, what God and Goddess didn't realize back then (and this is now fixed) is that with the highest ability to fail comes the greatest opportunity to learn something from it. As soon as one views failure not as something bad, but as an invitation to learn ("failure as a chance"), all experience ––including failure–– turns into something good. God and Goddess can now become the most knowledgeable and happy beings in the world. Nobody can even come close!

The All-One-God is both omni-knowledgeable and omni-clueless. All potential, no satisfaction. All knowledge, no insights. The All-One-God had to teach godself how to be a god. This process is not finished yet, and may never be finished. But descension was an integral part of it.

OK, that was just some sideline philosophy to tell you that the future looks very bright.

*doubleawarenesskiss*

*eternalvanillasmoochie*

*triplechocolatecanoodle*

The Uraeus is everywhere on so many statues and sculptures of Ancient Egypt. A snake between the eyes.


Egyptologists have no idea what the snake means, they can only speculate with their typical mythobabble:
The uraeus symbolizes sovereignty, divine authority, and protection in ancient Egypt. Pharaohs wore the uraeus as part of their crowns, which signified their legitimacy and divine right to rule. The Uraeus was not only a symbol of royalty but also believed to provide protection.

So why the snake? Because it is a near-perfect symbol symbolizing God's and Goddessess' ability to telepathically/telekinetically impose/stream out their will. God dislikes something a human did? He can stream it directly from his head between his eyes. As if a snake hisses.

God or Goddess want humans to come closer? It feels like a snake entangles the humans and brings them near.

God or Goddess wants a human to go further left or right? It's as if the snake warns them to not stray from the path.

The snake is a very good representation of God's and Goddess' will power.

God and Goddess decide one day to create a very special soul. A soul with a very special purpose: Pure Ethics and Fairest Justice. This soul was to encapsulate at its foundational core the most divine sense of ethics and justice.

So God and Goddess create a soul (all souls are created by God + Goddess, as all souls are created as One-Soul and then separate into female and male). It's Seraph (male) and Shakti (female). The soul is shining white on the inside (representing pure innocence and ethics) and glowing reddish on the outside (respresenting the fair justice). It has a snakey form (representing divine will to bring ethics and justice into the world). Isn't that a wonderful soul? It has an unextiguishable wish to make the world an ethical and just place for all. Bringing the lights of justice and ethics into the world. Wonderful symbolism.

This is where the name "Lucifer" (Lightbearer) for Seraph comes from ("Lucifer", Lux = light, ferre = bring/carry). A mystery to this very day for Christians and Bible scholars why such an enemy of God could have such a nice name. Even more: Both, God and Seraph, are called the Morning Stars in the bible. An utter mystery to Christians.

Several celestial bodies in the night sky are called morning stars. They are used, for example, by seafeaers at sea, as navigational guides.

But what does it mean to be ultimately just? It means making decisions not based on whether someone is poor or rich. Or whether someone is ugly or beautiful, stupid or eloquent, and also independent of whether someone was right or wrong before. That's what you want from a judge. You want a judge to make a just decision based on an impartial assessment, based only on truth and fairness, while being highly aware of the ideal situation.

A perfect judge should rule correctly whether the person before him is rich or poor, clean or dirty, ugly or nice, and ––now here comes the kicker–– whether it is God or not. Seraph-Shakti were created to do the right thing, whether it was God or not. Seraph and Shakti do not abide purely by God's orders. They abide by their own sense of Justice and Ethics which are God's and Goddesses' sense of Justice and Ethics in their most pristine form. Seraph and Shakti have a very high awareness of what creation is about and a very high awareness of what the ideal world should look like.

However, when God and Goddess were later in the middle of their descension and were getting more irrational and mean, Seraph's and Shakti's own sense of Ethics and Justice would clash with God's and Goddess'. This is where the tension between God and Seraph comes from. When Seraph sees that God is doing something unjust, Seraph's character tells him to step in and correct God's ways. However, it's also a sin to do something against God, right? So how does Seraph solve this sacramental dilemma? He solves just like God and Goddess solved it. Whenever Seraph/Shakti hurts God/Goddess, they afterward punish themselves. Just as God punishes himself after hurting his Goddess, and just as Goddess punishes herself after hurting God.

By the way it's injustice, but unjust. So nice that you love English as much as I do.

Seraph = Angel, snake, red. The Bible uses the term Seraph in all three senses: angel, burning, snake. A really fascinating connotation that, again, no etymologist or Bible scholar has an explanation for.

"Caesar" sounds a bit like a knife, doesn't it? It actually comes from "caedere" ("to cut"). The full name of Brutus was "Marcus Junius Brutus". "Marcus" comes from Mars, the red planet. "Junius" comes from Goddess "Juno" also known as "Juno Lucina" from "Lux" ("light"), Specifically, this light is associated with moonlight and the moon. "Brutus" comes from an adjective, meaning "serious", "heavy" or "grave". Just like the unextinguishable will of Sareph to bring ethics and the hammer of justice to the world.
Brutus later killed himself.

Judas was the one who betrayed Jesus by revealing Jesus' whereabouts to the authorities. His name was Judas Iscariot.
Some scholars have proposed that "Iscariot" could be linked to an Aramaic word from the root "סקר" (pronounced "sakar"), meaning "red color"
Judas Iscariot was frequently depicted in art with red hair and a red beard. This served as an artistic device to distinguish the traitor from the loyal disciples.
Judas later killed himself.

John F. Kennedy was killed by Roscoe White. Roscoe White admitted it and described it his diary, he attached the original letters with the assassination orders sent to him from US Naval Intelligence. He described the position from which he fired and how he did it. And although this is well documented in books and TV documentaries, his name is not listed on Wikipedia's page that lists all kinds of JFK suspects.
Roscoe White died by fire 7 years later. It was an accident at work.
Hey, did you know that even Jackie Kennedy is by some considered a suspect? After all, JFK's head blew off in the moment she turned to him. Gosh, JFK hated Jackie. She would never give blowjobs. He was so glad he got killed. Spared him another useless 40 to 50 years with that woman. When you get a headshot, the last thing you see is a white bright flash, "Greetings from Luci!"

Also note the family connection betwen JFK and Robert Kennedy Jr. More on JFK later.

"Roscoe White". From The Old Nordic "rá" ("roe deer") and "skógr" ("forest").
Roe deers are the most common deer species in Europe. In summer, their fur is typically reddish-brown, which can give them a vibrant appearance. They feature a slender body and a distinctive white patch.

His codename for all kind of dirty jobs for the government was "Mandarin". Mandarin is not only an orange fruit, but it's also the main Chinese language. China is associated with red.



Did you know that I have a close friend in Dortmund, my sauna comrade. And his name Piorowski.

Again "iscario", "roscoe", "iorosk". He is Polish, hence his Polish name. The "pior" part sounds like the Polish word for lightning "piorun". Moreover like the polish word for feather "pióro".

He gives off the same criminal vibes as he did when he was Judas. He steals things from shops, he has problems with the law.

John 12 Mary Magdalene took a very expensive bottle of perfume and poured it on Jesus' feet. She wiped them with her hair, and the sweet smell of the perfume filled the house. A disciple named Judas Iscariot was there. He was the one who was going to betray Jesus, and he asked, "Why wasn't this perfume sold for 300 silver coins and the money given to the poor?" Judas did not really care about the poor. He asked this because he carried the moneybag and sometimes would steal from it. Jesus replied, "Leave her alone! She has kept this perfume for the day of my burial. You will always have the poor with you, but you won't always have me."

My friend has flick knives and a collection of brass knuckles, and he talks constantly about killing himself. The day before yesterday he told me he is afraid of dying in a fire. Oh, and he is mentally ill (psychiatric case) and has ideas about sitting in a circle with God. And other stuff like that.

And his first name is also "Sebastian". How fitting that at the end of the descension both Morning Stars are Polish and have the same name.

Did you know that I was once invited for dinner by the neighbor of my mom, two apartments further down the hall (actually 1 apartment because nobody lives in the one in the middle). During dinner the neighbor told me that he was Muhammad, the one who started Islam. But he told me it was with the help of alien technology (no, it wasnt alien, I know how he did it, but that's another story).

I mentioned that "Yah" means moon. You know that JFK is associated with the moon landing right? And that he stopped World War III between Russia and USA?

And Tumblety, always killing at night.

And Islam, the religion of the crescent moon.

And Sebastian, always working at night. The plot thickens!!!

God and Goddess are the archetypical Pisces. March 31st is the astrological pinnacle of Pisces in the Zodiac, it's the last day of Pisces, for the highest of Pisces. Not in our current Zodiac calendar because the Earth's ecliptic around the sun shifted a bit. But in the original one.

I solved all my personal issues with Opconics on the 31st March of 2024. All of them. What remained then were interpersonal issues, like demons or other people etc.

31st March 2024 was a very special day, it was also Easter Sunday. The next Easter Sunday which falls on the 31st of March is in 2096.

But what about the Zodiac signs of our incarnations? They play a role, yes, but not like with other people. In fact, I follow a different symbolism. My death date (last incarnation) is very close to my birth date (next incarnation). It's as if I continue where I left off.

Tumblety dies 28th May. JFK is born 29th of May. Dies 22nd November. Твой Бастущ родился 18 ноября.

*verywetpisceskiss*

God and Goddess have a problem, a huge problem. It's about the organization of the world and what societies in a worst-case scenario might descend into. It could stall or destroy happiness and the whole of the universe.

It's about oppression. Men, in theory, could create a society that completely oppresses women. Men with their stronger bodies and their ability to invent machinery and establish powerful organizations could always exclude women and oppress all of them. A society could devolve into a state of complete oppression of women: Women would be forcefed with food, forced to give birth, forced to stay alive. They could be kept stupid and under constant supervision.

Women, on the other hand, could never establish such a society to oppress men because 1) women are bodily weaker, 2) they can't outsource pregnancy to men, and 3) men can't be forced to stay alive because ––even in a society run by women–– men would still be needed to invent and maintain heavy machinery and dangerous chemicals and therefore men could always find ways to commit suicide.

Therefore Goddess has a special power that God doesn't have. She can have secrets that God cannot uncover. Yes, God can see inside Goddess just as she can see inside him. However, he can only see what she allows him to see. That was the reason I could not properly scan you. I could scan you, but since you decided that there are things I shouldn't know, you were able to veil them. That's what made the divorce possible, it was your innate power to hide things even from God.

*iloveyousomuch*

To solve the "oppression problem", God and Goddess decide the following: Men would organize themselves as individuals or as a hierarchy in a group. But women would additionally be organized as a swarm, secretly controlled by Goddess, and not even Goddess must reveal her secrets to God. So men follow their own plans plus their groups' plans, while women (additionally to their own plans and their groups' plans) follow the secret plans of Goddess. Therefore, women are more mysterious than men, while men are more logical than women. Women don't understand their own decisions completely and men don't understand women's decisions completely either. Men will never understand women (or an individual woman) completely, and equally women will never understand themselves or other women completely, as well, because they are controlled by Goddess.

Goddess has this power to organize women as a superorganism, so that women could evade total oppression in case this is needed. Goddess uses things like coincidences, making the female sex uglier, making women less prone to pregnancy, making them frigid, aggressive, obnoxious, what have you. And not even God could find out what's going on.

It's not a complete fix for the "oppression problem", because men could still theoretically find ways of total oppression. In fact, this was one of God's and Goddesses' hugest quarrel points: That God was not sensitive enough to the possibility that men could still find ways to oppress women. God simply ignored that possibility as too unlikely and too unimportant. I have fixed this insensitivity now, I see the importance of it and will work to make sure that it will never happen. You were right, it needed to be fixed, I love you.

But isn't it unfair that Goddess has this special power to hide things from God, whereas he cannot hide anything from Goddess? No, because there is a downside to hiding things: She has anxiety when her secret plans don't work out. It's an additional source of failures for her that God does not have. Let me clarify: Goddess does not actually have "anxiety about keeping a million secrets" ("confession compulsion"). No, she's not anxious about that, and it's one of Goddess' abilities to not be anxious about it. HOWEVER, she does have anxiety when it comes to her secret plans regarding God, because that always affects her personally. So if she has hidden plans for God, and God makes a wrong decision (= her hidden plan didn't work out = she has to make a new hidden plan = it's additional time) then she gets nervous.

So, for example if it takes God too long to finally finish up the whole descension-ascension business, she gets internally upset. You, in your incarnation as Nadya, don't necessarily feel this upsetness, but your higher self can get very upset and even wants to start World War III about it because your higher self has this supervulcano sex magma pressure that could erupt any minute if God makes a wrong decision that could stall the ascension for another century.

The fact alone that I spend time writing you all these words could be seen as a waste of time and a deviation from ascension. Why write? Why not simply ascend?

Well, partly it's because I am in a Supergrip to keep my wife informed. I am two to three years ahead on this and this love letter is only a fraction of what I have discovered. Gosh, how I miss talking to you. How I can't wait to tell you everything.

But additionally to the Supergrip that forces me to write you all these things, I feel that this is necessary knowledge for you to know. I literally feel how the things I write here, break up barriers in your awareness, and this in turn breaks up barriers in mine.

And moreover, how else could you have put your Divine Asshole in a more pristine condition than it already was? Should I have written per WhatsApp "Your asshole needs fixing"? Just imagine you sending me birthday wishes and I reply with "Your asshole prevents ascension! Signed: Your Divine Gentleman Husband. PS: It's threatening me! Fix your asshole ASAP." I don't think that would have conveyed the necessary message effectively.

You should know that I intensely work every day (actually every day several times) to get the descension concluded and ascension finished. I have never had such intense spiritual trips like now. So it means it is working, but not quite. You are doing a marvelous job, I can't even tell you how much I appreciate what you are doing, even without saying a word. We are really not just divine spouses, but a divine team. Thank so much.

Yesterday, I found another reason why the ascension is not finishing. Probably the hugest reason of them all, a very intense reason, and we are doing it at the same time, that's why none of us both can ascend alone. In fact, that was the very purpose of it: To prevent any one of us to ascend (or halt the descension) without the other.

What we are doing is: We are sending our own Uraeus into the Uraeus of the other. So I am pushing my Uraeus out of my third eye into your thrid eye into your Uraeus, and you are doing the same with me. Our will powers are intermingled, mashed up, blended into each other by huge will force. To disentangle each of us must pull our own Uraeys back. Right now my Uraeus is in your head and your is in mine. I must pull my Uraeus back into me and you must pull your Uraeus back into you. We kind of tried it yesterday, but even pulling back is hard because it is prevented by the other Uraeus. We have pushed our both Uraeuses into each other with so much force that they kind of form a single "Siamese Twin Uraeus" reaching from our third eye to the other's third eye. We are not only, spouses and twins, we are Siamese spouses and Siamese twins currently.

And I don't think any other person could understand this properly what I am writing here, so we are Siamese Scholars of the Divine, too, so to speak.

We are also preventing each other from leaving our bodies. Usually we would be able to simply leave the head and be outside of our head and fly around like a bird, including flying into space. We are forcing each other to stay in the brain. We are "birdcaging each other" or "forcing the bird into an egg". I don't know whether we are doing it with the Uraeus method alone or with another method. Maybe a combo of methods.

I think this is what is happening in this image:
Ra is imposing his will onto Goddess. You can see the massive sun and tge "will rays", you can see his Uraeus snake. On her head is a bird's egg in a bird's nest. The bird can never come out of its egg. A pretty nice picture, actually. Also note, how this is never shown in reverse (= Goddess doing it to God), exactly as I have said the plan to be: To never show the true state of the world is God-Goddess Duo-Theism.


We also control each other via our sacrums, but more in the sense that I hurt your sacrum with my will, and you hurt mine, by inserting nasty commands into them, after we clashed.

Then we did some thing I call "massagogging", which is entering the others soul space and forcing it to do something. Oh, well everything is about entanglement, one could call all types of these spiritual entanglements "massagogging". Not all of these entanglements must be addressed by us. Basically all will disentagle on their own automatically during ascension, except probably for the "Uraeus Siamesing".

Goddess today has rediscovered another method to drive her God crazy. She has rediscovered that she can put purposes into her body parts. And the body part she has now upgraded in that way is her Asshole. Before it was "just" an Asshole, now it's an Asshole with a life of its own and its own mind (or should I say "her own mind"?).

Now she-Anus not only looks beautiful and mesmerizing, now she has also a will of her own. She-Anus actively wants to have God Cock. She-Anus needs God Cock, she-Anus is lusting for God Cock. WHEREISGODCOCK!? She-Anus not only wants to be fucked by God Cock, she-Anus wants to ringwrap herself around God Cock to hold God Cock tight. She-Anus wants to give God-Cock a blowjob like only she-Anus can. Suck God Cock (and only God Cock!, other cocks are so inferior), and instead of spit it will be beautiful Nutella, and Goddess rectum will be the gulping throat.

God Cock loves to get blowjobs by Goddess' she-Anus. They are not blowjobs but something else, I am sure Goddess will invent a proper name for this sensation. I love how Goddesss she can bring life into important things.

God loves her Goddess more every day, and the Ascension has just begun.

I miss Goddess extremely and think about Goddess the whole day and whole night. I wish you were here, we could do so many things together. Ah, well, soon.

*kissofimminence*

Before Tumblety kills Mary Jane, he comments on her beautiful legs. You can actually see in the crime scene photography how nice they looked, indeed. In fact, her legs are so beautiful that Tumblety doesn't dare to cut them, he leaves them intact.

It is this comment that Mary Jane remembers and keeps very dear to her heart after dying. She does two very important things, 1) she notices that he likes her legs and feet, 2) she observes how often he returns to whore Kira to have his cum swallowed without ever thinking about killing Kira.

So she, as Nadya, does 3 important things: 1) To not trigger Sebastian too much by her leg beauty, she uglifies her legs and feet (= she makes them less beautiful than she made them as Mary Jane), and 2) she swallows his cum because that, too, keeps her alive, as it did for whore Kira. Usually Goddess would prevent herself from giving blowjobs (see Nofretete). But now she has to swallow because it is necessary for the murder plot to work. And, 3) she captures soul Kira and gives birth to her because that, too, lures Sebastian in.

Nadya doesn't marry Sebastian, Nadya "marries" him. She doesn't blow his cock, only "blows" his cock. All probably somewhat half-heartedly, all to lure Sebastian into a relationship and into a position of weakness in Russia... to have him revenge-murdered in the end. It was forbidden to marry Sebastian (Echnaton curse) or to blow his cock (Hecate order), so Goddess had to invent a method to circumvent these restrictions. What a clever Goddess.

The whole plan and setup took over 100 years. I love how dedicated Goddess is to act out the plans she has for God. What husband wouldn't like such dedication by his wife to her husband, even if it means getting killed in the end.

*kissofdedication*

The following is Shiva, he is blue. Shiva is the main deity in Hinduism.


The "shiva-blueness" is an interesting thing. Hindus explain it as follows: "Shiva is blue because he covered himself in ashes to signify his poverty", as if ashes were blue and a sign of poverty. Mythobabble sometimes gets ridiculous.

In reality the blue hue is the hue inside of one's head. It's one of the tricks to confine souls to their skulls. This trick wouldn't really work on God and Goddess, but it works on human souls. It's not the only trick to catch and keep souls in bodies, but it's one of the tricks.

First, between lives, an attraction is instilled into human souls for this type of blue. In my view, the real "skull blue" looks slightly different (more dark and more attractive), but that's irrelevant here.

Then, when the soul enters the body before the body is born, the area within the skull is made to give off this blueish light and therefore souls get somewhat attracted to the interior of the skull = souls prefer to be inside than to be outside. The blue makes the skull interior cozy, kind of an interior design feature.

There are many other methods to keep souls within skulls. For example, souls between lives are told, that certain things (for example certain memories) are really really important. Then the souls are told to grab this important memory and hold on to it with their spiritual fist. "Keep this in your spiritual fist!!! Do not let go of it! Or you will lose this memory!!!" Then this memory is glued to a certain part of the brain and the soul holds it really tight and now can never leave the brain.

But back to the blue. The blue therefore symbolizes a certain type of awareness: The awareness that one is a soul in a skull = the awareness that a spiritual world exists and one not is a body but has a body.

When someone is in the skull and opens their "spiritual eyes" to look around in the skull, one can notice the blue light but one can also notice a reddish light within the skull at the front of the skull. One sees the third eye reddish in front of oneself. That's why Hindus put the red dot on the forehead. The stronger one's awareness of the third eye, the reddisher the interior of the skull gets until it's not blue anymore.

The blue light is not always visible but only in certain meditative states. It's not really important to see it. I just mention it, in case you encounter it.

There is another method to keep souls trapped. It's not related to Shiva necessarily. It's called "Samsara", it creates specific thought patterns, or rather a circular sequence of thoughts, so that one can never have a certain (correct) thought which could lead you to realize the truth. Just like driving a car from gas station to gas station (= from thought to thought) on a road that is merely a circle. One is "guardrailed" onto the street, and the street itself is circular. One can never think outside the box, outside the circular thought sequences.

As soon as one would think dangerous thoughts (= thoughts too close to the truth) one would suddenly get other thoughts and these other thoughts would lead back into the circle, into the box.

Shiva is called God of Destruction. Hindus don't know it, but he destroys himself. Shiva has all kinds of symbols on him. Nobody (aside from the typical mythobabble) is able to explain any of it. I will explain it now, and it will make complete sense.



Turning innate power into a method
God and Goddess, after they built Egypt, were still very powerful. For example, God could move stones just by will. "Stone roll over here!", and the stone would. That's too powerful for the descension.

So he decides to move away from home (= out of Egypt = away from anything that could divert his attention) and incarnate as Shiva. There he begings to reduce his powers with a technique called "Kundalini".
In Hinduism, kundalini ("coiled snake") is a form of divine feminine energy (or Shakti) believed to be located at the base of the spine.
So you have spine, coiled snake, Shakti, female energy. In this case the mythobabble is true. I will explain.

When I tell you to imagine in your head a triangle, you can simply do so. Close your eyes, imagine a triangle, *bam* there it is. Now make it yellow *bam* it's yellow. Now turn it blue *bam* blue. When I ask you "How did you do it?" you couldn't even answer, you just wanted it. You didn't even wish it ("I wish the triangle to be blue"), you just wanted it and it happened. There is no method aside from wanting it.

In fact this is how God created the universe *bam*. Close your eyes, imagine a spinning globe. Voila, you have now created space, matter, time and energy in one simple single step.

Shiva invents the following to to reduce his ability: 1) Instead of merely "wanting", he adds an intermediary step = he makes it a method. Next, 2) He prevents himself from using this method. Instead of wanting something and *bam* it becoming true, he simply claims that "For something to become true, I must use a method". And then "I will make it impossible for myself to use this method". He would therefore become incapable in the end.

So, instead of saying "Stone, roll over here!", he does it like so: "I will not simply command the stone to roll over, instead I will invent energetic arms on my back and then use these arms to grab the stone and bring it to me." He can now use his arms to bring the stone toward him.

And: "Instead of my will (Uraeus) I will use a spear" ("Trishula") as a method. This is actually what "Shiva" means, "The Spear of Will".

Note that the Uraeus isn't actually a method but simply a representation of God's will. The spear (trident), on the other hand, is a method (= an artificially inserted non-necessary diversion). Actually, the spear was still too powerful, hence he makes it a trident, consisting of three forces that must be used at the same time to be effective.



Knotting Shiva's arms ("Kundalini")
Shiva invents 4 energetic arms and places them on his back. These are the arms of Shiva. But this is still not enough, because he can still use trident and arms to achieve whatever he wants, right? So now comes the next step: He has to make his energy arms useless. He makes a knot in them, he coils them up. Now he cannot simply use his arms anymore, they are knotted as if a snake had knotted itself and coiled itself up into DNA helix. The arms become a coiled snake.

As the next step he pushes his knotted arms into his spine. Now they are coiled up and confined to his spine. Then he pushes them down his spine into his sacrum, to the base of his spine. Then he hands over to Shakti (the wife of Seraph) the secret of how to free them out of his sacrum. And he tells Shakti that since she hates men ––especially powerful men like him–– she will love to have the keys to his sacrum and never give them back to him. Oh, how she loves that, indeed.

Why Shakti hates men is a different story

The once powerful arms of Shiva are now a coiled-up snake in his sacrum is now under the control of Shakti, hence it becomes "Shakti power" = a female power. Shakti, as I told you before, is also Parvati and the one who sits on Shiva's head. She sits on top of Shiva's head because she now controls Shiva's powers.

Hindus mix her name up a little bit, because they think it's three women, not one, called "Ganga", "Parvati" and "Shakti". In reality, it's just 1 woman with a strange mix-up of roles. Nothing demonstrates the mix-up better than her role for Shiva: Shakti is very friendly and happy because she can help to destroy Shiva by Shiva's own wishes. Is this good? Bad? Neutral?

He calls this method Kundalini. Wikipedia writes...
In Hinduism, kundalini ("coiled snake") is a form of divine feminine energy (or Shakti) believed to be located at the base of the spine. It is believed to be a force or power associated with a divine feminine aspect. This energy in the body, when cultivated and awakened through tantric practice, is believed to lead to spiritual liberation. Kundalini is associated with the goddess Parvati.
Again, what was mythobabble before is now completely clear.



Tiger skin ("Vyaghra charma")
So now he has this energy coiled up, made useless, locked-way in his sacrum. This is symbolized by the tiger as bedside rug.


A bedside rug tiger is a helpless, powerless creature, a shell of its mighty past. A mere reminder of its former power. And where is the tiger? Well, Shiva sits on his sacrum = Shiva literally sits on his useless powers. He sits on the bedside rug tiger.

Shiva's tiger should actually not be a tiger but a dragon, like a Chinese dragon. This would symbolize God's power much better. But dragons weren't known back then in India. A tiger comes closest to something like a dragon.



Yoga: Adding conditions to the methods
Wait, one point is missing: Yoga. Shiva is credited with being the inventor of Yoga. Here's a list of titles for Lord Shiva from Wikipedia:
The Supreme Being, God of Time, Lord of Yogis, The Cosmic Dancer, Patron of Yoga, Meditation and Arts, Master of Poison and Medicine.
Well, supplements weren't invented back then, so "Master of Supplements" is not one of his official titles, haha.
You can thank me later for inventing yoga :), for example, by doing some contortions while you offer me your body for my pleasure, or doing some crazy position while I watch your ass and everything that comes out it. Gosh, how everything about you makes me horny.

So why does he need Yoga? To additionally have conditions to the methods: "Let's have the following 2 conditions: I must be in a thin, muscular shape AND I have to make certain crazy unnatural yoga postures (or extreme dance poses)." In other words: He adds 2 conditions to the methods. 1) He has to be in a certain physical shape, and 2) He has to be in a crazy bodily position to be able to use his energetic arms.

That's why Shiva is never portrayed as fat or so (like Buddha). He is in pristine Yogi condidtion.
Note also that being crucified makes it impossible to acquire any yoga position.

Since he uses these two conditions to prevent him from using his God powers, how would you call using them anyway (= using them by getting thin/fit and doing yoga)? You would call it cheating, right? And what do you know, when you wanted to divorce me, you got very thin and started to practice yoga. No wonder you hated it when I tried to watch you doing it. It was as if I had caught you cheating.

Gosh, how I love my Yoga wife. I could kiss you from top to bottom.

Shiva is God of Destruction, he wants to destroy himself, and he isn't finished yet.



Bead chain ("Rudraksha Mala")
Note the bead chain that hangs around his neck and chest. It consists of 108 beads.

Shiva's bead chain represents deep spiritual significance and connection to the divine. Rudraksha beads are believed to be the tears of Lord Shiva, symbolizing his compassion for all living beings. Rudraksha beads are renowned for their divine protection and ability to shield the wearer from negative energies. Wearing Rudraksha beads is seen as a way to seek Shiva's blessings and maintain a connection to his energy. The beads represent the eternal cycle of creation, preservation, and destruction, mirroring Shiva's role in the universe.
It's mythobabble except for the very first statement: They represent Shiva's tears.

You see, all these methods and conditions still weren't enough. Shiva feared that in a time of great urgency, he could still somehow reactivate his innate powers. So he invents punishing methods. Whenever he would try in times of need to somehow use his innate powers, bodily punishment would kick in. He would get shortness of breath, lung inflammation, helpless body weakness etc. So he invents more than one hundred of these punishments, which I call Schrecklichkeiten ("Terrorities"). It had to be so many so that 1) He wouldn't be able to ignore them, and 2) He couldn't manage to dissolve all of them. The pain would be bigger than his ability to do something about them.

In my pastlife excursions they were terrible, ranging from flu-like breathing problems, to heart-attack-like stings in the heart, closing up of the throat, sword-like wounds etc. Approximately 100 of them, I stopped counting after 80. Nasty stuff. They would get activated by certain thoughts, for example by the thought to be together with a woman or by wanting to solve things with spiritual power. This is how I knew it wasn't a heart attack: As soon as I stopped thinking these trigger thoughts, the heart attack stopped. As soon as I thought them, I got a "heart attack" again.



Drum ("Damaru")
Next, notice the drum in his hand. Warning! More mythobabble incoming:
The damaru represents the primal rhythm of creation and embodies the dualities of existence. When Shiva plays the damaru, it is said to create the rhythm of the universe, symbolizing the pulse of life that beats through all beings

Yeah, sorry no. The drum symbolizes sudden out-of-place thoughts whenever I tried to concentrate. Then suddenly foreign thoughts that would get inserted into my mind to make me deviate from what I wanted to think about.




The snake of pain ("Naga")
Next, notice the snake. It's in every image of Shiva. It's the most noticeable feature. The snake sits on his right shoulder.

In yogic tradition, the snake represents a profound evolutionary stage, one that can perceive dimensions beyond the five physical senses. The snake represents a dimension of perception that goes beyond ordinary sensory experience. In the yogic system, the snake symbolizes cellular activity and blood movement, representing an ability to understand life at a more subtle level.
Wow, mythobabble at its finest.

In reality, the snake was always triggered when I got too close to regaining power. It would bite me in my throat and inject venom which would cause lymphnode pain and throat infections that bugged me my entire childhood and adulthood (= a constant feeling of having an infected throat). The snake also bit my upper jaw and injected its nasty venom that would last for days. It would also cause my throat to feel tight (истерический комок).

A snake which sits on Shiva's shoulder and wraps around his neck is a good representation of the danger to be bitten or strangled.

The snake is different from the 108 tears because it would cause longer-lasting issues. This was the nasty thing that caused my tooth problems in my upper right jaw. The ones that neither the Russian nor the German dentists were able to cure. I even went to the hospital. They took samples of my jawbone. They couldn't do anything. It caused many problems and I lost several teeth due to it. Then I ran pastlife sessions and *swoosh* the pain goes away.



Third eye ("Gyananakashu")
Next, notice the front of his head. He has a third eye there.

Shiva is referred to as Three-eyed lord ("Tryambaka Deva") with the third eye placed on his forehead. While his other two eyes indicate his activity in the physical world, the third eye stands as a symbol of wisdom. This eye of Lord Shiva is known as the "Spiritual eye" which stands for deeper consciousness.

Around his third eye are several lines ("Tripundra").
The Tripundra consists of three lines, which serve as a reminder of the transient nature of the physical body and the importance of spiritual attainment. Each line represents a distinct aspect of existence and consciousness. The first line represents Garhapatya fire, associated with the power of action. The second line represents Dakshinagni fire, representing the power of will. The third line signifies the Ahavaniya fire, linked to the power of perception.

It's really flabbergasting how they call him "God of Destruction", yet all his features are framed in the most positive terms.

What the lines around his third eye represent is that he closes up his third eye. As you can see, it's wavey and it's not even fully open. It represents that it's being sealed up. Previously it was open = ready for action/ will/ perception. Now he closes it up.

The third eye is used not only for the Uraeus snake but also for something like "Oh, I see an accident will happen here soon" or "I have the feeling I should take the left road" and similar. This is how I survived in Borisovka. I was literally feeling to not drop off the kids in front of the house, but on the bridge. I had opened my third eye just enough to feel the massive danger to go any further down Kovalyovka.



The moon ("Chandra")
Shiva has always the moon in his hair, that's why he is also known as "Chandrashekhara" ("One who wears the moon on his head"). I will spare you the mythobabble about the moon, it's unbearably ridiculous. I will get straight to the real meaning:

Shiva did an additional trick to lose his powers: He separated off some of them and inserted them into the moon. Just as he put some powers in his sacrum, he put other powers into the moon.

I am pretty sure I did it on the lft side of the moon hence the crescent moon.

Why didn't Shiva put all of his powers into the moon? Why some into the sacrum and some into the moon? Because he feared that over time or in times of urgency those powers would actively want to return back to him. This could have pulled the moon towards earth. In fact, I actually think this is what partly happened and what the Black Stone is about that Muslims worship in Mecca:
The Black Stone is a significant religious artifact located in the eastern corner of the Kaaba, the sacred structure in Mecca, Saudi Arabia. It is revered by Muslims as a holy relic, believed to date back to the time of Adam and Eve. The stone is described as a fragmented dark rock, often thought to be a meteorite, and it has been polished smooth over centuries by the hands of countless pilgrims

Some of the moon where Shiva inserted his power broke off and landed on Earth. Not by his direct command, but simply by the pull-force that wants to reunite God with all of his pieces.

The woman in the next picture is Kali. She is said to be a goddess. She is blue, has a long tongue and a horrifying face. Often, Hindus don't show the horrifying face, so I want to first show you how she should look in my view (which is the correct view).


The following is probably the most iconic scene in whole of Hinduism. Shiva in this picture is not dead. He lies on the ground voluntarily. On him stands Kali. Shiva is usually as blue as Kali, but in this picture he is not blue anymore. Shiva has become a pale-peach-white human. Also note that Kali has now his spear.


Hindus have no explanation for Kali, let alone this picture.
Kali represents a powerful synthesis of creation and destruction. Her worship encourages followers to embrace both life's beauty and its inevitable end, fostering a deeper understanding of existence itself.
Just mythobabble.

So who is Kali? Kali is an invented woman, hence she is blue because she's something in his head.

She has 3 features Shiva likes very much: 1) Her bare feet and long nice legs, 2) the long tongue, 3) long inner labiae minorae (which on pictures are always covered up like that, Hindus have no clue).

God loves long female tongues, it's like porn for God. God could watch a long female tongue and cum quickly. God also likes female legs and feet, but a lot of men do, too. But God likes something that only very few men like: Long labiae minorae. For other men it's a huge turn-off, but for God it's a huge turn-on. For God, they basically cannot be long enough, down to the knees if they could. (And stuff attached to them dangling down. Maybe even making sounds as the woman walks.)

So, Kali basically represents a beauty ideal of God. To tell you the truth, asshole beauty and nice tits and nipples like Nadya's are more important than any of these Kali things. Because although long labiae minorae are a huge turn-on, they are pretty low on the priority list. Nadya's teeth and her asshole and her face and nipples are more important than any of the other features.

And actually, I wouldn't even know how to represent such things as "nice nipples" in a picture like these Hindu pictures. So no wonder they chose a long tongue, naked legs/feet and long labiae.

But why is Kali so terrifying? Because God wanted to make sure to only have relationships with Goddess. What good is descension for, if God and Goddess never come together and quarrel, but instead always find other spouses with whom they never quarrel?

So, he invents a beautiful sexy woman matching his beauty standards AND THEN makes this symbol of female beauty horrifying: He wants to be afraid of such a woman. He wants to be unable to move, unable to have a relationship with such a woman. So he gives her a horrifying face, a war pose and symbols of brutality (skulls, cut-off heads, bloody knives etc).

Notice the background of Kali and Shiva: There are a lot of women at a distance. They are naked (= sexy) and they are also horrifying. Some male corpses lie around. Again, this conveys the same message: Sexy women are dangerous!!! Stay away from sexy women.

Additionally, these women never reach Shiva, they stay at a distance. This was also needed for the descension to work: Women would never be allowed to reach God, as that could have prevented the whole descension thing.

So: 1) You, as Nadya, have uglified your legs and feet. Not only that, you didn't want me to touch your knees. 2) You have shortened your tongue, and 3) You made sure to have only short labiae minorae. When you were younger, you were worried that your labiae minorae might be too long.

So you made a mix of attractive and non-attractive features. 1) On one hand you wanted to lure me in. But on the other hand, 2) you didn't want to be over-the-top pretty. Both would guarantee that A) Sebastian's potentially still existing murderous ambitions wouldn't be triggered (by beautiful Mary Jane-tier legs and feet), and B) His fear of Kali wouldn make him stay away.

Voila, a Nadya was born who was a perfect mix of everything. That's some Goddess-tier powers right there, my perfectly mixed wife.

I wasn't only JFK, I was also George Washington (1732-1799) while you, at the very same time were Catherine The Great (1729-1796). You are Mother Russia, I am Father Washington. Hence the constant threat of war between Russia and USA. And although you weren't a "Mary" in that life, you were "Matushka".

As Washington I was way too close to power. I was not only a successful business man, I was also military General, I established an empire and I became a president. Moreover, I was Grand Master of Freemasons, and presided over significant Masonic ceremonies, including the laying of the cornerstone for the U.S. Capitol where I acted as Grand Master.

As a thank you, they painted George Washington as God on the ceiling of the Capitol building:

The concept of George Washington's ascension to heaven, often referred to as the Apotheosis of Washington, symbolizes his deification and exaltation following his death. This theme is primarily illustrated in the famous fresco located in the rotunda of the United States Capitol, painted by Constantino Brumidi in 1865.

And similarly were you.
Catherine the Great, the Empress of Russia from 1762 to 1796, is often regarded in a quasi-deified manner, particularly in certain cultural and historical contexts. While she was not officially deified in the same way as some saints or religious figures, her image and legacy have been elevated to a near-mythical status in Russian history.

As Washington I was too close to power, hence the Shiva snake was torturing my jaws.
George Washington's dental health is a significant aspect of his life, marked by extensive struggles with his teeth and the use of dentures. Washington began losing his teeth in his twenties, and by the time he was inaugurated as the first President of the United States in 1789, he had only one natural tooth remaining. Throughout his life, Washington used at least four sets of dentures made from various materials such as gold, brass, lead, hippopotamus ivory, and human and animal teeth. This discomfort likely contributed to the stern expressions seen in many portraits of him.

And what about JFK? Wasn't I too close to power, too? Indeed. But I had to become president so I couldn't have rotten teeth. Instead my sacrum was going crazy.

When JFK was young he was OK. One day in WW2 JFK's US war ship PT-109 got attacked by a Japanese destroyer and sank. One of the crew members was too wounded to swim.
Kennedy was able to rescue Patrick McMahon, the crew member with the most severe wounds, which included burns that covered 70 percent of his body, and brought him to the remaining bow of the ship that was still floating. Kennedy also rescued Starkey and Harris, bringing them both to the bow. On instructions from Kennedy, the eleven survivors thrown from PT-109 regrouped and, hoping for rescue, clung to PT-109's bow section for 12 hours as it drifted slowly south. On 2 August, it was apparent that the hull was taking on water and would soon sink, so the men decided to swim for land. As there were Japanese camps on all the nearby large islands, they chose the tiny deserted Plum Pudding Island. They placed their lantern, shoes, and non-swimmers on one of the timbers that had been used as a gun mount and began kicking together to propel it. Kennedy, who had been on the Harvard University swim team, used a life jacket strap clenched between his teeth to tow McMahon. It took five hours to swim to the island, which they reached without encountering sharks or crocodiles.
At a later date, when asked to explain how JFK had come to be a hero, Kennedy replied laconically, "It was involuntary. They sank my boat."

In other words, when I was young I was OK. But later my sacrum got really bad: The first back surgery 1944 removed some degenerative portion of the cartilage in the sacrum.
But upon having the patient Kennedy get up and about, severe muscle spasms in the low back took place. These necessitated fairly large doses of narcotics to keep him comfortable.

It was a failed operation, JFK writes:
"In regard to the fascinating subject of my operation.. I think the doc should have read just one more book before picking up the saw."

Then came the second back surgery where they inserted metal plates into the sacrum.


But this didn't heal properly:
JFK's recovery in Palm Beach would continue to be complicated by a "staphylococcal infection" and was described as an "open, gaping, very sickly looking hole." and "the area where they cut into his back never healed. It was oozing blood and pus all the time. It must have been painful beyond belief…. It was an open wound that seemed to be infected all the time. And now and then a piece of bone would come out of the wound. His pain was excruciating." JFK received hundreds, if not thousands, of pain killer injections.

The name of JFK's ship "PT-109" stands for "Patrol Torpedo 109". In this context however, I prefer "Physical Torture 109". One more Schrecklichkeit was added to Shiva's 108: Sacrum pain.

JFK had to wear a corset. In fact, this was the reason JFK died. After the first shot in the car (hitting his throat), he stayed upright and couldn't bend or fall down to get out of firing line for the second kill shot.

And what about Goddess when Goddess is too close to a position of power?
Catherine the Great faced significant health challenges throughout her life, including a notable issue with curvature of the spine. This condition was identified when she was just seven years old. The treatments Catherine received did not fully resolve her spinal issues, and she continued to deal with the effects of scoliosis throughout her life.

And... Catherine's dental problems began early in her life, exacerbated by various medical treatments that were often ineffective or harmful. One particularly troubling incident involved a botched treatment which not only put her life at risk but also led to the extraction of a tooth along with a small section of her jaw. Later in life, Catherine suffered from severe toothaches that were described in detail in various historical accounts. Despite the absence of modern pain management techniques or antibiotics, she underwent tooth extraction procedures that were common at the time but fraught with risk and discomfort. As Catherine aged, she faced additional dental challenges that culminated in the need for dentures. Historical records indicate that she wore dentures in her later years. This aspect of her health is often overshadowed by her political achievements and reforms?, but serves as a reminder of the personal struggles she faced.

Well, I don't know how severe these things were, but it's astonishing that they are somewhat parallel to what Washington and JFK went through.

But: In all my lives I additionally suffered by punshing myself for having hurt you. I didn't allow myself to have any real wives or girlfriends except a few (and shitty ones at that). You, just like in this life, got basically all the sex you wanted, I never did, it was one shitty life after the other. I have been lonely as hell for several thousand of years. I didn't have children as Washington, and Jackie Kennedy never gave me blowjobs. Thank goodness I was killed. Gosh, I hate being so alone without anyone. I never really had a wife, only for a short time. I hate it that Sergei is now longer with you and the children than I have been.

So what I want to say that maybe my, in my view, somewhat subpar performance as husband may be also related to my long time without any real wife. That's maybe why I am a better divorcee than a husband. That's all.

Thank you for sending me these beautiful images of you pleasing and pleasuring me. They mean a lot.

All our children are named after "Ra", by the way.

Solaris.

Ron (= "small Ra" in Acient Egyptian).

The best one is Kira.
One of the interpretations of Kira is derived from Egyptian roots, where it means "like Ra" or "similar to Ra".
In addition to its Egyptian roots, "Kira" has various meanings in other languages. For instance, in Sanskrit and in Hindi, it means "ray of light" or "sunbeam," further reinforcing its association with light and brightness. In Persian, it is also associated with meanings related to the sun. In Greek (modeled after the Greek word κύριος ("lord") and Russian contexts (as feminine form of the masculine name "Kir"), Kira can mean "ruler" or "mistress".

Shiva has a problem. He needs to go away from Egypt and from Goddess so he is not dragged back into some inner-Egyptian conflicts or marital quarrels. He wants to leave his home turf, then lose his powers and then come back.

But how can he make sure he finds his way back after destroying himself and losing his powers? He uses the following trick: He goes in a straight line to the East. He chooses Mount Kailash.
Mount Kailash is considered the most sacred mountain in Hinduism and is revered as the home of Lord Shiva. Mount Kailash, also known as Kailasa, is a sacred mountain located in the Transhimalaya region of Tibet, China. It holds immense spiritual significance in Hinduism, Buddhism, Jainism, and Bon religion. The mountain is revered as the abode of Lord Shiva and is often associated with various mythological narratives. The name "Kailash" possibly derives from the word "Kailāśa," which means "crystal" . In Tibetan, it is referred to as Gang Rinpoche, translating to "Precious Jewel of Snows" . This reflects the mountain's majestic appearance and its significance across different cultures.

It's pretty much the exact middle of the continent from the pyramid to the oceans in the East. Basically, from desert to water. Once he loses his powers, he merely needs to have his body die, then go up up up, then wait approximately for 12h as the earth underneath him rotates, and voila, he's back in the desert, with Egypt just around the corner. Should he, however, decide to go in the other direction (= go eastward further away from Egypt), he would suddenly find himself at the ocean.

My goodness, how mnay speling mistaks I make. You, see, when I am doing my pastlife research and lying in bed, I type on the mobile phone. That's the first reason why mistakes happen: too many letters too fatty fingers.

Then at the PC, my mind is still in a meditative state, and my brain is still vortexy from all the supplements and biochemicals. Sometimes I cannot walk straight. So, on the monitor the letters are wobbly and the lines are melty.

Additionally, I am in a hurry to write Goddess, so that Goddess has food for thought and can continue to help the ascension. I am sure Goddess prefers a few errors here and there to being informed too late.

Shakti, the wife of Seraph, during JFK's life was Marilyn Monroe. It is through her that Goddess streamed her love into me. The love feeling was magnificent, nothing else like it, all the warmth of Goddess. The love streamed through Shakti is very, very warm. Warmer than what Nadya streamed into Sebastian. Goddess prevents herself from streaming this kind of love into God directly as this would immediately halt any quarrel.
Marilyn Monroe and John F. Kennedy's relationship has been the subject of much speculation and rumor. While never officially confirmed, their alleged affair is one of the most talked-about in history. Monroe had a famous performance when she sang "Happy Birthday, Mr President" to JFK at his 45th birthday celebration at Madison Square Garden.
When she was lying next to me in bed, she always called me "Mr President". But she would never give blowjobs. Pretty disappointing for such a sex symbol, when you think about it. She now lives a few streets away from me. Her name now is "Bozica Todorovich" (From "Bog" and "Theo" and "Doron" = "The small goddess who is God's gift"). But she still refuses to give blowjobs.

In a chapter above I explained that one of Seraph's names was "Marcus Junius Brutus". It consists of "Mars" and "Juno" and "Brutus". "Brutus" in Latin means "heavy" and this symbolizes the hammer of justice bringing order. A pretty fitting name.

The name on Marilyn's birth certificate is "Norma Jean Mortenson". As wife of Seraph, what better name than "Morten", derived from "Mars", "Jean" and "Juno", and "Order" and "Norm".

Voila. Husband and wife. Wife is pumping me up with Goddess' love, husband delivers the killing shot. What a couple.

I told you that Seraph and Shakti were created to follow highest ethics even if it's against God's wishes. THAT's why Goddess can circumvent the love-streaming prohibition. Goddess streams it through Shakti who does not necessarily follow God's and Goddess' orders.

However, it's still a sin for Shakti and Seraph to disobey God's and Goddess' orders, that's why Marilyn Monroe kills herself shortly after, and JFK's assassin dies shortly after, too.

And who is Kira? It's the daughter of Shakti and Seraph. That's why she, too, can disobey certain orders if she sees that they are causing pain for God or Goddess. That's why she was able to swallow Tumblety's cum.

With King Tut, the son of God and Kiya, a strange new line of souls was created, unifying aspects of Godhood and "Ethichood". Let's see what comes out of it. It's a new step in the evolution of the All-One-God.

Here's something that's still a mystery to me. Why does Goddess get all the sex she wants life after life, while God is totally lonely? Even as Nofretete you got the sex you wanted.

You can get hugs and touches every day, while I am lonely and sexless life after life. My bodily loneliness consumes me, drives me crazy.

We do everything in parallel, except this one thing.

I know that there's a deeper meaning to it, and I also feel it prevents ascension. So maybe we can find it out together.

Remember when you told me that Kira shouldn't be my daughter? Sure you do.

In the night from 11th Dec 2017 to 12th Dec 2017, I dreamed about you being pregnant. And you know what you told me in that dream? You were very happy to tell me that you did it for both of us and that Anya is "our child". Really strange, isn't it?

In the real world you're telling me that Kira shouldn't be my daughter, via dream you're telling me that Anya is ours.

I don't know yet what the hidden meaning is of the Anya dream. Maybe it was to calm me down so that I would be less devastated. Or (more likely) there's more to it.

I have already written how you, as Goddess, have the ability to create daughters that fit the ideals that God likes to see in women. Maybe the Anya dream meant that Anya has some features that could have only been created with the help of Sergei, not by God+Goddess alone?

So what could "Kira shouldn't be my daughter" mean?

Well, first, it means that you should have divorced me earlier, of course. That's the apparent meaning.

But it also means that it's upsetting to insert a wife of mine (Kiya) into our marriage. Kiya shouldn't be my daughter because she's a wife, a foreign body. She shouldn't be my daughter because she brings stress into your life.

And... she shouldn't be my daughter because she's only my daughter to lure me in as part of the murder plot.

And... "If Sir Echnaton loves his Kiya so much, then she shouldn't become his daughter but rather they should meet as adults to become husband and wife, shouldn't they?"

But you also said that she "should have been Sergei's daughter". Well, it could mean that you would have liked Kira to have some features that Sergei's daughter would have. Maybe some features about asses and everything that comes out of them. So "Kiya should be Sergei's daughter" may actually mean that Kiya is good at swallowing cum but she should also be proficient at some dirtier stuff?

Well, I am just guessing, you probably have better answers to these questions. Hidden reasons everywhere. Curiouser and curiouser, maybe I am overthinking things.

We have just now upgraded our marriage to something new!

Before, we "just" had a Divine Marriage made out of Love, Happiness, Appreciation, and Importance.

Now we have made a new bond, we have added an additional bond. It's the next step in the evolution of the All-One-God.

Today, 16th December 2024 07:00 Dortmund, a new bond was made.

Divine Marriage By Love and by Submission Out Of Love
God and Goddess are now bound by an additional bond, a voluntary bond. You are now submitting to me completely.

Before, it was love and appreciation ("I am happy that you are happy that I am happy that you are happy that...").

Now it's also "I want you to submit to me completely, Goddess", "I submit to you completely, God", "I love that you are submitting completely to me, Goddess", "I love to submit completely to you, God", "I love that you love to submit completely to me, Goddess", "I love that you love that I love to submit completely to you, God", "I love that you love..."

Wonderful melty feeling, utter unity between us. We both melted together in the Bond & Oath Of Divine Submission.

I didn't add the Russian title on purpose. I don't like to translate it as "Более совершенный божественный брак". It's "Divine", not merely "Godly"!

Goddess has now found out what kept me in sexual torture. It was Goddess herself. Goddess confined God to a state of sexual degradation and loneliness.

Goddess as Goddess Fortuna has the ability to meet the right people at the right time, therefore she met the right men at the right time. But at the same time Goddess Fortuna was keeping away the right women from God. Goddess made my life a sexual hell, by never connecting me with any woman that could sexually fulfill me.

Goddess is the one who put God into constant sexual torture, never allowing him to feel welcome, never allowing him to feel sexually satisfied, while she gets all the sexual satisfaction she wants.

Goddess was torturing God with loneliness and sexual desolation while Goddess herself was getting all the sex she needed. Sexual fulfillment and gratification for Goddess, total degradation and frustration for God. Goddess has all the sex she wants, while keeping God in a state of sexless sexfrenzy degradation torture.

And although this currently makes me somewhat upset, I at the same time know that I have to dissolve this upsetness to make ascension possible.

But now Goddess has massively pulled away many, many of her entanglements that kept me sexually unfulfilled, made me feel unwelcome and so on. Goddess has now opened ways so that women can find me and offer me sex in times when Goddess isn't around. Goddess has now massively taken away these restrictions out of God's sacrum.

But why did Goddess torture God like that in the first place? To punish God for daring to leave Goddesss!

So, thank you for the dis-entanglement in the sacrum. A necessary step to make ascension possible. However, some of the sacrum entanglement is still there, because Goddess waits for an answer why God didn't return to Goddess when she was Mary Magdalene. It's such a grudge in Goddess that it will prevent the whole ascension until an answer is given.

The Jesus-Mary Magdalene episode was especially hurtful because God not only didn't come back to Mary Magdalene, but he also left no explanation, and no explanation for the no explanation.

An utter disaster that turned Mary into Dark Mary and then into Darkest Mary and then into Murder Mary. Far worse for Goddess than the Echnaton vs Nofretete clash.

Jesus came back, visited people to the left, people to the right, but never visited his beloved Mary Magdalene.

First, he didn't return, he didn't leave any note, any explanation. Then, he sent her a message of malice. But why? How could the greatest love story on Earth "Jesus and Mary Magdalene" turn into something so dark?

You already kinda know the GENERAL answer to that question, right? You know that the general answer is "Well, we had to descend."
Yeah, that's the overarching theme, as always, "It's part of the descension" and "We had to hate each other" and "We had to be brought into extreme states of beingness". Sure, sure.

But Jesus and Mary Magdalene were unaware of any descension business. For them, it was just a strange mix of ultimate love, followed by death and depression, followed by excruciating spiritual pain, followed by extreme darkness, and then centuries of hate, torture and self-punishment. Culminating in the clash of Tumblety vs Mary Jane, and Надюшка vs Бастущ.

Don't know whether to use "Мария" or "Мэри" for the Russian title.

So, what were the reasons why Jesus didn't show up in Mary's room when she was crying and missing him like no other woman has ever cried and missed a husband? This is the question that still bugs you, "God broke Our Promise to always come back!!!!" It weighs heavy on your soul, this extreme grudge. It makes you bitter, in fact this is why you are Mary, it comes from the Hebrew word "מר" (mar) which translates to "bitter" and carries significant connotations in biblical texts. Its usage can be both literal and figurative, often associated with pain, sorrow, or bitterness in various contexts.

So let me explain.